Growing up is scary

My sister turned 18 last week. She's the youngest of 6 kids so officially there are no more kids in the house. The celebration last Saturday was pretty monumental as we are now all officially declared adults. The song and dance number us brothers had to do did not help us feel older though, only more shameful (or shameless?). Still it was a good weekend and I'm glad everyone's looking at it as a point where us as a family now looks forward to our future.

heavy

Still I can't help but want to keep us being kids, might be the reason I always get everyone toys for Christmas. Somehow, you kind of miss that every so often. What I am really glad though is how we're still close as a family and surprisingly not a lot of people can say this. As much as I hate how crazy my family can be, I can't help but be scared of how it would be when I leave the house. Something I've tried before during college, but that's not the same. When it's go time to move out, that is scary.

But I guess that's how you start new adventures, on your own. And when you've had a lot, you celebrate and share them to your family back home.

Gf visit!

A while since the last post. The gf visited from Singapore for the weekend which was great. Spent some great quality time eating and meeting up with friends. We even went to a toy bazaar, awesome. It's been a few months since we've seen each other aside from on a computer screen. Ldr-ing's not cool, but I guess it makes you appreciate your significant other even more since you miss each other most of the time. We're making it happen.

gelato shake for two

On the work side, things are getting busy with me focusing more on making reports and stuff. Hope to have some things done by the end of the month so I could focus more on my school applications. For one reason or the other, it's always been pushed aside. I should know better and get into applying again.

Overall, life's been going better with all the things I've been doing. Finally feel like I'm moving forward. Now all I got to do is direct myself to my goals and eventually I'll get there.

Get things done

I'm starting a new schedule this week, for a special project given to me at work. It's actually really cool that I've been given a big responsibility that matters and actually can tell myself that I love the job. Only now I get that big responsibilities are big motivators. And it's not because I get glory when I get it done, it's because its actually useful and something that I can do. Feeling useful and productive is something I have missed for a long time.

But as much I like my work, I can't help but feel that the more I like it, the more I'm inching my way back to a life I've left before. It may or may not be a step back but I don't really know which or if either of those is the way to making it. I also kind of seem to forget my goals every so often as I enjoy the ride there. If making wrong turns or mistakes is what it takes for me to find the directions, then I say bring it.

breakfast at 9pm

The focus this past week was to get things done. Unfortunately, some (most) of these things have been for hobbies and stuff. I've got a lot of Gundam models that haven't been done yet so I'm planning to finish them before next year. I finished one last week which is an achievement since I started it around this time last year. I've gotten pretty good at NBA 2K11 and can beat my brothers with a pretty bad team. That and trying to eat healthy again, which may be failing miserably but intentions are there.  

one year in the making

I guess this coming week can be about getting productive things done. Amazing that I've only realized this while I write this down. I really recommend doing this (writing), for figuring things out.

Sundays are the new Saturdays

So far, work's been steady and balanced with good friends and occasional ping pong game, which makes me think I've really taken the better choice of the two job offers last month. Good job me. Topic of the week: weekends.

Weekends are actually starting to be good, except for the trouble of filling in time for friends. You're sleepy whenever it's time to go out and when you're game, everyone's not. The only ones probably game are your office mates who have the same weird schedule as you. Our "Friday night" was spent on Saturday morning at a toy convention in Robinson's Place. Those events are always cool.

Collecticon 2010, and dude wear a real shirt man.

My toy haul worth 500 bucks, awesome.

But for other friends? The only time I found time for high school friends was later that Saturday at 2pm at Cartimar to join some friends for Arowana hunting. Plus I missed a friend's birthday later that night. So balancing that is crazy but I'm sure it will work out soon.

But for alone time and focus, night shift is awesome. I've never done so much things on a Sunday. I woke up extra early to watch some TV shows, had time for mass and lots of time for the mall after, and that was just the morning. Still time for family and GF duties for the rest of the day. Yeah.

I think what helps is to just stop calculating your schedule with others (you'll waste at least 30 mins just for that) and just enjoy the times you're awake. Don't worry, the windows will open themselves.