Somehow there always seems to be a way to get distracted from goals. Even so when the goal seems so difficult and challenging. Even when you want it to happen, but it's just so pressuring to get done. And what more if you don't really believe in it?
Each opportunity for flight gets so easy to take and you get rewarded a false comfort of safety. But that safety is staying put, and staying put is not progress.
Maybe it's the change that will happen, or sacrifices you will have to make that makes people fear. It's a stress that takes many forms.
I guess the trick is to use whatever emotion you have and focus that energy, using it to take a leap.
It's time to make some leaps.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
Inspire
I noticed in the office that I get away with being light and quirky, particularly during office meetings. Serious office meetings. A lot of people aren't really open to doing that because they're afraid being blasted. I'm used to being blasted and that gives me courage to take risks. Something I want to be able to inspire others to do as well.
So, I got to thinking about what kind of person I am to others. How do they see me? I know I'm the guy that people can make fun of and not give a damn. I want to be something better. I want to inspire people.
Anyway these are ideas floating in my head right now.
So, I got to thinking about what kind of person I am to others. How do they see me? I know I'm the guy that people can make fun of and not give a damn. I want to be something better. I want to inspire people.
Anyway these are ideas floating in my head right now.
Ball rolling now
Sort of got the MBA ball rolling again. Asked my new boss for a recommendation letter and he's actually being mighty helpful. He went to Fordham too so he's got a lot of tips about how it is to take an MBA over there. I'm also checking out my essays and updating them up for this year. Pretty exciting and I really hope this pulls through.
One thing I can't get out of my mind though is whether it's too late to go to MBA. I'm still in the average age stated by MBA statistics but when I look at a lot of my friends, everyone is either getting married, married, having kids or making a lot of money. I am doing neither, and makes me feel like I'm sucking at this.
Yes you should never compare yourself with others, but sometimes you need a peg on how you're doing in life. And apparently this peg is f*ing with my head. I'm tempted to not pull through with the MBA but if I don't what do I do? I know I'm not earning enough to make it on my own, unless I kill myself working. Some people are, but I don't want to be that person.
Maybe I'm over thinking this and just need to take the steps. I think this will turn out right.
One thing I can't get out of my mind though is whether it's too late to go to MBA. I'm still in the average age stated by MBA statistics but when I look at a lot of my friends, everyone is either getting married, married, having kids or making a lot of money. I am doing neither, and makes me feel like I'm sucking at this.
Yes you should never compare yourself with others, but sometimes you need a peg on how you're doing in life. And apparently this peg is f*ing with my head. I'm tempted to not pull through with the MBA but if I don't what do I do? I know I'm not earning enough to make it on my own, unless I kill myself working. Some people are, but I don't want to be that person.
Maybe I'm over thinking this and just need to take the steps. I think this will turn out right.
Monday, April 4, 2011
New month, new perspective
Had a dream last night. I was having my MBA at the Asian Institute of Management, which is a business school here in the Philippines. I was in school with a lot of high school batchmates and things felt familiar. Then when things started to get weird (too bad I forgot why), I realized it was a dream and woke up.
I think that this is fate's way of telling me that it's April already and I should start send out MBA applications. It's been too long since I've worked on them the past few months because of work. Irresponsible, yes because I saw this coming. work would either get too interesting or busy and excuses for not working on applications kept coming up. I think it's time I worked on them again.
I'm glad my bosses at work are encouraging me to go through with it and even offered me a part time job if I get into New York. A very good option for me, not only to help me financially but also to keep a part of the company while I head on abroad. I have to admit that even if your company is not that great, leaving it behind is really hard to do.
So that's probably what I'm feeling now. Nostalgic, scared and a lot of other things. Most dominant though is the feeling of having to move on and getting on with my life. Make it, make it, make it. Another of my close friends is getting married and makes me wonder where I am right now in my life. Answers aren't there yet but for sure, they aren't found when you compare yourself to others. They surely aren't also found in the past.
As much as I try to keep myself from worrying about everything, something that I have to remember is that forward is the way to go. Stumble along the way and make sure I get there.
I think that this is fate's way of telling me that it's April already and I should start send out MBA applications. It's been too long since I've worked on them the past few months because of work. Irresponsible, yes because I saw this coming. work would either get too interesting or busy and excuses for not working on applications kept coming up. I think it's time I worked on them again.
I'm glad my bosses at work are encouraging me to go through with it and even offered me a part time job if I get into New York. A very good option for me, not only to help me financially but also to keep a part of the company while I head on abroad. I have to admit that even if your company is not that great, leaving it behind is really hard to do.
So that's probably what I'm feeling now. Nostalgic, scared and a lot of other things. Most dominant though is the feeling of having to move on and getting on with my life. Make it, make it, make it. Another of my close friends is getting married and makes me wonder where I am right now in my life. Answers aren't there yet but for sure, they aren't found when you compare yourself to others. They surely aren't also found in the past.
As much as I try to keep myself from worrying about everything, something that I have to remember is that forward is the way to go. Stumble along the way and make sure I get there.
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